In February 2012 I was sitting in my car, in the parking lot of the dr office, crying. Tears streaming down my face because I felt powerless, defeated, and ashamed. I was holding a stack of papers explaining why I needed to lose weight, what would happen to me if I didn’t, and the dangerous road my current lifestyle was taking me down. But the real kicker for the emotional letdown? The realization that all of this was happening because of MY OWN CHOICES. There was no blame to be placed, nothing by my own choices and lack of knowledge. And THAT- the lack of knowledge- is where a little fire started in my soul, and began to dry those tears.
I looked at those papers and decided to start READING, LEARNING, ASKING, watching, and changing— and most importantly, to share what I was learning. I think God was there for that one. Initially I felt so ashamed as I learned that I had to admit I was overweight. I had to admit I’d had an issue with food, sugar, and baked goods binging for a LONG time. To admit that I have been overweight since high school. To admit that I needed HELP, guidance, and the TRUTH about health to feel confident in my actions to change my lifestyle. It was hard. I still had some very emotional nights. I had some times of confusion, and insecurity in a very REAL sense. I had people in my circle roll their eyes and talk behind my back during this journey. BUT- I was seeing changes. Not only did I start to lose weight, reaching 25 lbs down in just 3 months, but with the knowledge I was gaining about FOOD, the confidence I felt from KNOWING what I was doing was RIGHT and that it would LAST was growing from that little fire I felt in the beginning, to a raging furnace of hope, determination, and after a few more months, the desire to SHARE and help others.
I now understood, and could recognize that the look of hopelessness in other overweight or undernourished, over-stresed human beings were struggling with the many voices of HEALTH as I had been. Wondering what truly is HEALTHY? What is the BEST plan? WHAT are the best foods? WHAT is the safest exercise? What will last for LIFE? And feeling overwhelmed, and possibly the victim of scams or feeling like failures from previous attempts to gain health and not being able to sustain it.
Sometimes people can go “COLD TURKEY” and change their eating habits over night, and do great! But for many others, it takes BABY STEPS. It takes some easing into. It takes direction, and a mentor, or coach
to go to for questions and ideas and successes and failures- someone who has been there before! It takes KNOWLEDGE and confidence to get it to STICK.
August 4, I will be Coaching a 21 Day Fix group. This will be 21 days of working out at home, 21 days of learning the basics of eating well for a changing body (in fact, in this group we will have color coded, different sized containers for our food types/amounts to keep us on track!), and 21 days of constant support, accountability, and KNOWLEDGE SHARING about health, fitness, and nutrition. I will start PreSeason Posts July 28, so let me know ASAP if you WANT IN- and I’ll help you get registered!